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Whitney Houston‘s ex-husband Bobby Brown broke his silence about her death for the first time on The Today Show Wednesday.
Bobby, 43, told Matt Lauer his relationship with Whitney “was great … I had 14 beautiful, beautiful years with that woman.
“I can honestly say that — I love that woman with — with everything that I am,” the pudgy former teen idol told Lauer. “And I believe she loved me the same way.”
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The New Edition singer said he hadn’t used narcotics until delving into a relationship with the late Whitney, who he was married to from 1992 to 2007, and had a daughter with, Bobbi Kristina.
“I smoked weed, I drank the beer, but no, I wasn’t the one that got Whitney on drugs at all … I worried about it when … we first got together until I tried it,” he said. “And when I tried it, for some reason, I have an addictive personality.”
He added, “It’s just unexplainable how one could, you know, [say he] got her addicted to drugs — I’m not the reason she’s gone.”
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Still, he said he regrets not doing more to help his troubled ex.
“Maybe I could have done something different to insure she had a longer life,” he said. “But, you know, you have to want it. God probably just wanted her up in Heaven, in the choir.”
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Bobby said he saw Whitney a week before she died, and thought she was headed in the right direction.
“Everything about her was going upward,” he said. “She had this glow about her — incredible — I was thinking to myself, ‘She must be doing very well.'”
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